I'm Lost Without You

At first we loved, but not again.
We met at the mall,
and we talked ever since.
We stood starring at each other,
I wondered the time, we'd
Stand together. Holding hands
as we walk down the street,
I wondered when our lips
Would meet.
My heart is broken, u seem
to ignore, The pain I
have, when u left me sore.
Our love was strong In which now your
heart is blind to see, now I feel
that your love has forgotten
completely about me.
Well all in all I'm heartbroken
Without u by my side,

I wish we could love each

other like we did that one time.

What could I say?

” I cry for the time that you were almost mine,
I cry for the memories I’ve left behind,
I cry for the pain, the lost, the old the new,
I cry for the times I thought I had you”

After a million miles

I'm back to blog finally >.<"
Yeah, it's been a long long long long long and a freaking long time since my last bloggie about what's happen around. Everything has change in just a few months or maybe a year I could say...and what I've finally got a new babe in ma house *YaY* which you can actually seen it in my header *a picture of ma new babe*.

One year has gone...some friends got married and some got lost but still I'm here for myself. I'm having my finals now..hopefully everything will be going fine till my grads. I've been lazy-ing for these few months. I'm just to lazy to continue everything. It seems that everything I do, I never get to finish it..everything it's like a failure to me. Family getting over, friends getting off and study going down. It's been a really bad year for me...I don't wish more...I just hope that everything will be better and when things go better, that's when I'll be happy...

Oooo..yea, last weekend was a hectic working for TM..it's fun but tiring weekend though...Met with a long lost pretty lady too and of course I did took a nice pic with her *3rd place in Ms.WCG*

Presenting the beauty and the beast *bleak*

Our Broken Family

Our Broken up family,
so disjointed,
and unfamiliar to me.
I feel lost in my own home.
Where did we all go?
What happened to the happy days?
All I see now, is a broken family.

I look at the picture,
hanging on the wall.
Happy faces smile back,
taunting me with the past.
They seem to say to me,
look what you ruined,
when you came back.

Our broken family,
wears a mask for the world.
No one sees the pain beneath.
yet I can see in their eyes,
the knowledge hidden there,
they heard the fights.
They are only being polite.
They know it's all wrong,
behind the bleak walls of home.

Our broken up family,
lives for the kill.
We sit and ponder,
conjuring up new ways.
To harm each other.
Making our own lives miserable.

Life shall never be the same again,
yet as I cry myself to sleep.
I hope for a better life.
Dream of a new begining.
I find that retribution,
in slicing myself to peices.
In the thrill, of feeling alive again.
The sight of blood a reminder,
life goes on.

An angel in my Hell.
It takes my life.
Consumes it wholly,
not a trace left to find.
No more pain, no more anger.
At last free.

Our broken family,
would never miss,
one member.
They would soon forget,
all about my pathetic being.
They'll go about,
their blissfully ignorant life.
And walk right on by.
Their life will go on.
My poor broken family.

sIck ass

Finally I fell sick for few days..sleeping for hours like a bull dog. Holidays now..been working for the past few weeks but no work atm..it's really bad and I'm dead broke now..waking up 3 at noon and bed 6 in the morning..that's so sick for holidays..duh. I had fun tho..thanks to my friends for their home-cook food and bunch of old secondary schoolmates for Christmas celebration. Guess I had too much fun for the holidays..haha..let the pictures do the work..


home-made yong tau foo by Gobury and Fynessa *yummy*


Our tables@Dolphin Cafe


It's so freaking hot and packed with people..everyone screaming for Christmas!!!


Finally, we headed home for some real thing!!!

Merry Christmas & Happy New Year!!!

A sleepless long holidayz

Days passing just in a blink of an eye...It's already December and finally I'm done with my finals..woo wee!!! But....I didn't really did it well for exams..anyway I just want a passing marks *pray god* I don't need to wake up early in the morning for class anymore..I don't need to rush my assignments anymore..haha!!! Damn..I have to worry about my intern now...hopefully everything will be fine. I'm stucked with 3 subs left and I can't go for my intern initially..duh..but still I will go for it..so let's fuck it. My holidays just started few days ago..can't imagine I had a crazy day with my crazy classmates..woke up in the early noon and went to M-square and night again for some liquor at Sanctuary..it's really tiring, I guess I'm old dy..anyway I really appreaciate the day I spent with my friends...Happy holidays and good luck for intern next sem!!!

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It's time to blog about what's happening here! Well...there's nothing much to blog actually cus i've been working every night and worrying about my finals..no outing..no friends calling and so on..I know that I don't have many friends now..haha..alrite I remembered I had a birthday celebration with Ben in MoS...Yessss, getting drunk is still the best for me!!! I'm just a home-alone! He's drop dead after a lomborghini shot! That's all..everyday is a sleepless night..what to do?!?! really need to cut down my coffee crazee or else I'll need some sleeping pills..ooh coffee..im just addicted to you! Here's some photo's we had in MoS last Thursday..

Very very blur photos from my stupid phone..

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