Our Broken Family

Our Broken up family,
so disjointed,
and unfamiliar to me.
I feel lost in my own home.
Where did we all go?
What happened to the happy days?
All I see now, is a broken family.

I look at the picture,
hanging on the wall.
Happy faces smile back,
taunting me with the past.
They seem to say to me,
look what you ruined,
when you came back.

Our broken family,
wears a mask for the world.
No one sees the pain beneath.
yet I can see in their eyes,
the knowledge hidden there,
they heard the fights.
They are only being polite.
They know it's all wrong,
behind the bleak walls of home.

Our broken up family,
lives for the kill.
We sit and ponder,
conjuring up new ways.
To harm each other.
Making our own lives miserable.

Life shall never be the same again,
yet as I cry myself to sleep.
I hope for a better life.
Dream of a new begining.
I find that retribution,
in slicing myself to peices.
In the thrill, of feeling alive again.
The sight of blood a reminder,
life goes on.

An angel in my Hell.
It takes my life.
Consumes it wholly,
not a trace left to find.
No more pain, no more anger.
At last free.

Our broken family,
would never miss,
one member.
They would soon forget,
all about my pathetic being.
They'll go about,
their blissfully ignorant life.
And walk right on by.
Their life will go on.
My poor broken family.

sIck ass

Finally I fell sick for few days..sleeping for hours like a bull dog. Holidays now..been working for the past few weeks but no work atm..it's really bad and I'm dead broke now..waking up 3 at noon and bed 6 in the morning..that's so sick for holidays..duh. I had fun tho..thanks to my friends for their home-cook food and bunch of old secondary schoolmates for Christmas celebration. Guess I had too much fun for the holidays..haha..let the pictures do the work..


home-made yong tau foo by Gobury and Fynessa *yummy*


Our tables@Dolphin Cafe


It's so freaking hot and packed with people..everyone screaming for Christmas!!!


Finally, we headed home for some real thing!!!

Merry Christmas & Happy New Year!!!

A sleepless long holidayz

Days passing just in a blink of an eye...It's already December and finally I'm done with my finals..woo wee!!! But....I didn't really did it well for exams..anyway I just want a passing marks *pray god* I don't need to wake up early in the morning for class anymore..I don't need to rush my assignments anymore..haha!!! Damn..I have to worry about my intern now...hopefully everything will be fine. I'm stucked with 3 subs left and I can't go for my intern initially..duh..but still I will go for it..so let's fuck it. My holidays just started few days ago..can't imagine I had a crazy day with my crazy classmates..woke up in the early noon and went to M-square and night again for some liquor at Sanctuary..it's really tiring, I guess I'm old dy..anyway I really appreaciate the day I spent with my friends...Happy holidays and good luck for intern next sem!!!

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It's time to blog about what's happening here! Well...there's nothing much to blog actually cus i've been working every night and worrying about my finals..no outing..no friends calling and so on..I know that I don't have many friends now..haha..alrite I remembered I had a birthday celebration with Ben in MoS...Yessss, getting drunk is still the best for me!!! I'm just a home-alone! He's drop dead after a lomborghini shot! That's all..everyday is a sleepless night..what to do?!?! really need to cut down my coffee crazee or else I'll need some sleeping pills..ooh coffee..im just addicted to you! Here's some photo's we had in MoS last Thursday..

Very very blur photos from my stupid phone..

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Saisaki Japanese Buffet

Hmmmm..this is probably my belated birthday lunch spent from my sis..can't really remember when was the last time we had this outing together.. I was actually force to wake up at 11 morning because of this..ahha. We headed to Saisaki Japanese Buffet at Wisma UOB and shop an hour in Pavilion..anyway I was enjoying the day with my mom and sis..and of course my new top jeanz from my mom and sis as my birthday prezzie!

Here are the pics stolen from my sis bloggy..


Those cups are all mine!


Thomas n sis


The unwaken faces..anyway love my mum & sis!


Don't so picky!


On the way to Pavilion, it was a long journey..duh

The last words..

Finally I had myself back to blog..It came to my mind to blog when I was driving home. Yesterday was a good day for me, I never really taught I could celebrate my little chicken day with few friends and for those wishes that came to me that surprised me with a little shock. It might not be the happiest moment for me but I did appreciate everything that I had on my wonderful day especially from my parents..which present me a nice little stuff and a warm dinner. Time flies really fast and I'm twenty-three this year. I think I am a boy, but when I go out, there are many kids call me uncle, so I have to accept that I am an old man now. It is probably the one and only day in my life that matters and makes me feel special. I would like to thanks a million for everyone who still remembers. It means alot to me!



That's for myself (^.^)

HaPPy bIrtHday to myself..

It is just another day,
nothing special anyway,
no surprises to say,
just an ordinary day,
no friends came by today,
to wish me happy birthday,
I started my day,
with breakfast out by the bay,
alone on a sunny windy day.

I watched the tide go away,
another year older today,
its a scary thought anyway,
as a walk along the beach astray,
I talk to myself and say,
happy birthday to me today's my birthday!
as i lay alone and catch some rays,
of this beautiful birthday day,
Happy Birthday to *myself*